Who I Am by Evil God-san
Yup. Evil God-san is in high spirits right now.
I am grateful that he is creating various things for my reincarnation, but...
It seems that this has somehow stirred Evil God-san's creator spirit.
Evil God-san happily took out a notebook and a ballpoint pen on the table and started writing something down.
"Okay! First, can you tell me what you want to do! Let's build the setup from there!"
What I want to do...
I think back to my memories, which have largely slipped away.
I vaguely recall working, but I can't remember what I was doing.
I remember wearing a suit and bowing my head, but I can't even remember what I was feeling at the time.
Even if I try to remember other things, I can't remember cooking and eating at home, going to play pachinko, or just hanging out at home.
(TN: Pachinko (パチンコ) is a mechanical game originating in Japan that is used as an arcade game, and much more frequently for gambling.)
The lack of memories and emotions made me look at things objectively, and I felt that I had led a pathetic life, even though it was my own life.
Not only that.
No matter how much I try to remember, I can't remember hanging out with my friends...
I thought it might be because my memory was missing, but that doesn't seem to be the case.
And I don't think I had a girlfriend either.
I remember that I may have had feelings for someone when I was a student, but I was rejected soon after.
I don't seem to have any memories of anyone who seems like a lover since I became a member of society, and I do remember frequenting s*x clubs...
How can I say it......
There's nothing extraordinary about me......
It's very painful to watch my life fade away...
"Umm... Evil God-san... I thought about it when I recalled my memories, but... I don't have the kind of personality or life that would make Evil God-san like me..."
Evil God-san was a little nervous at those words.
"Really? I don't particularly dislike your way of life."
I was puzzled by those words and asked back.
"Is that so? Isn't there something special? It seems that I didn't have any friends or lovers, and I didn't seem to have the guts to do anything..."
"I don’t know what to say to that… you seem to have accepted your weaknesses. That's a strength in a way. It is difficult to accept such weakness and unreasonableness, and if you resist it, you will get hurt. It is a wound to the body, but especially to the mind. If you are not good at it, your life will be damaged. You have lived your life by using your ability to ignore and accept these things. You have nothing to be ashamed of."
Then, with a big smile on his face, Evil God-san spoke again.
"If you felt that your previous life is lacking, then in my world you should be able to fully bloom! If you want to resist unreasonableness, then resist! If weakness bothers you, be strong!
Live true to your desires! I will make them all come true!"
When I saw Evil God-san speaking happily in such powerful words......
The poison disappeared.
I see... I can do anything?
Is it okay to be faithful to my desires?
And Evil God-san asks the same question again.
"I'll ask again! What do you want? What is your desire!"
I answer this question with a fearless smile.
Be true to my own desires!
"I want to make out with girls! I want to do lots of naughty things! And you, Evil God-san! I want to build the ideal world you envision!"
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